The light at the end of the tunnel (week 34)

This past week was really busy, doing miscellaneous things. I paid for school fees, took kids to counseling, searched for furniture, went to renew my visa, and saw the girl’s home. The girl’s home is looking good. They have more painting to do and outside work but with the next week it should be done!  On Sunday, we went and bought some kitchen and bathroom things for the home. It was exciting to pick out everything and know this is going to happen soon. Now, our only challenge is staffing. There are some conflicting opinions on who should be in the home and how many people should be there. So, prayers for clarity and compromise on both sides are needed. I don’t want this challenge to delay the opening of the home. These girls need this home. 

Living Room 

Re-tiling of a room

I also, continue to struggle with the fact that I only have 3 months left. I want to get things done here but I can't help but think about what is waiting for me at home. I know that my heart should be here and be present because these girl's need me and it is here for the girls, but for everything else my heart is at home and I can tell that it is affecting my interactions. I know I'm going to go through a lot of change in the next couple months and my heart is starting to protect itself from the hurt and pain it may experience. But in doing that it takes away the joy I might find as well. So, I am struggling to fight the fear, my normal tendency to retreat when things get hard and change is coming but I have been really trying hard to break out of that pattern. I could really use prayers that I don't retreat, that I embrace the change and experience all that I should be!