NO EXPECTATIONS! (Week 32)

This week was actually a slow week! On Monday, I went and saw the girl's home thinking it was supposed to be done but it still hadn't been finished. So I was meant to spend all week buying furniture and such but was unable to do that because they hadn't finished the renovations. I didn't have many other things to do this week because I had planned on getting things for the girl's home. I was in the office a lot this week. On Friday, I found out that all that is left to do on the home is the bathrooms and the rest of the painting. I haven't seen the home since Monday so I will go this coming week and see how far they have gotten and see if what they say is true! It has been a rough few weeks! At first I was told that the home was going to open the end of January, then I heard the end of February, then I heard the first week in February, and now I have no idea how long it will take! I don't know what to believe and feeling like I want to be able to prepare myself mentally for when I have to move out and have some sort of time line of when things will happen and I don't have any of that. It's been hard this week with having such hopes that the home was going to be done then nothing. One thing we would say, when I was here in Swaziland in 2008, with a group of 20 other people, is to have NO EXPECTATIONS! I have been reminded of that phrase often here. I can't come here and expect things to happen how I think they should. Swaziland is much much different then Swaziland and I have learned to adapt and realize things are different, but there are times when I struggle with those differences and this is one of those times. I'm a pretty laid back person, says my mom. She shared with me something that struck me. She told me that it's kind of against my nature to feel how I'm feeling. She showed me how my passion for this home to be open is driving me to push things along where generally I am a laid back person and will let certain things just take their course. I hadn't really thought about it like that. I don't think I really realized how much I cared about these girls and giving them a safe place to live. I really only have 4 months left here and I know God's plan is right and good and whenever the home is too open God will provide, but I don't want to go home regretting my time here. I want to be able to say that I did everything I could to help along this process and give these girls a safe place to stay. God is good and will provide. He gave me this opportunity to do something for these girls and I don't want to disappoint him! I want to use my God given talents to honor and glorify Him in every way!