Trust in Him

So I realized it’s been a few weeks since I last wrote a blog. I have been trying to figure out what to write about and I’m still not sure. I decided I would just start writing and see where that leads me… June is coming up faster then I thought it would and I’m feeling stuck and afraid of what’s to come. As I learn more about what I’m going to be doing and the responsibility I will have, I continue to wonder if I can do it. But it’s not really about me is it? It’s about those girls and what God has called me to do. God has this planned for me. He’s not going to leave me high and dry. It’s so easy to get caught up in the lies that I’m not good enough and to doubt God’s call. I have to constantly be telling myself that God will give me what I need to do what He has called me too. He isn’t going to fail me! I continue to doubt and worry though. I’m afraid of letting God control it because I don’t know what is going to happen. It’s really a lack of trust in Him isn’t it? But he’s never failed me before, why would he now? It’s like this constant battle within me, believing in those lies or believing what God says. Obviously, God’s truth is the right way but it’s easy to get lost in the lies if you don’t have your eyes on God. All this makes me think of John 8:31-32 which says: ³¹ “Jesus said, ‘If you hold to my teachings, you are really my disciples. ³² Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.’” It’s like I said keeping my eyes on God (verse 31) will help me know the truth (verse 32). I’ve found that if I don’t talk about what is bothering me it eats me up inside but letting it out frees me from its bondage. I don’t know if this all made sense since I didn’t really plan it out but I hope that God’s power and truth will shine through it. He is faithful, trustworthy, powerful, healing, and so much more. He will set you free if you let him. You just have to Trust Him!

GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!!!!

"Be true and real to who God has called you to be. Don't let others stop you in your pursuit of what God is calling you to. Be faithful in your response to His call because God is being faithful to you! He loves you!" I wrote that little letter to myself a few months ago at Saturate (a young adult ministry at a local church). I received the letter right before Christmas, I don’t know why but I never really looked at it. The other morning I was going through some of the stuff in my room and I found the card. It was such an encouragement. I have been struggling, as I wrote in my previous post, with all the things I'm going to be missing while I'm gone and just having a lot of emotions about leaving. I had a really creepy dream the night before and woke up feeling not right, like the dream was demonic or not of God. So I prayed against it and opened the bible app on my Ipod because I couldn’t get rid of that feeling. The verse that came up when I opened it was Matthew 16:16 “Simon Peter answered, ‘You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.’” It was exactly what I needed. God IS faithful and has been faithful through everything even when I don’t realize it. He’s been faithful in continuing to work in me; changing me to be more like Him; and having everything fall into place for me to go to Swaziland.  I've raised just about $2,000 in a little over a month for my trip! God is truly faithful and He continually reminds me of that!