Eish! This week was one of the hardest weeks since I've been here! Johannes, a 19 year old boy who I met 4 years ago when I was here, has a heart condition, which I don't fully understand. This week he passed out twice. I took him to the clinic the first time and the hospital the second time. It took him a while to wake up and respond to the nurse/doctor. Once he woke up, he was groggy, really thirsty and said his stomach hurt. After sometime he would be fine and back to his normal self. One of the doctor's at the hospital said things at home are affecting him and that's why he is having these issues. In other words, his home life is putting too much stress on his heart. So, this week has been rough! I struggled a lot with not knowing what to do or how to help him. I've been praying and he definitely needs prayer. But I felt useless otherwise. He's a great kid, smart, funny, and has great potential! It's been scary for me to have the kids and even adults looking to me to know what to do! It's a lot of pressure to have someone's life in your hands. Obviously, I wanted to help and do whatever I could and be there for him but to be the one to make the decision on what to do is scary! But, I found that since no one else was doing it someone had to step up. Even though I was terrified and would have gladly given that responsibility to someone else, God was there with me and used me even though I felt so inadequate! "And he said to me 'my grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.'" 2 Corinthians 12:9. Looking back on this week, He's the one who got me through. He gave me the support of my housemates. After taking Johannes to the hospital on Thursday night, I had to run home to get the paper that had what medicine the clinic had given him. When I got home, I broke down, Michelle, a volunteer at the home, offered to drive me back to the hospital! She was a really great support by just being there. Knowing I had someone there to support me made me feel better. Also, knowing that those in the States were/are praying for Johannes is a great support. On Friday, Musa, a Swazi friend, took Johannes to get a passport, birth certificate, and an ID, so that if Johannes needs to go to the doctor in South Africa for better care he can go! Johannes looked much better on Friday! He was happy and just overall looked like his normal self. I know he could be fine one minute and not the next but it was nice to see him smiling and enjoying his day! It was a good way to end the week!
On another note, the girl's home is slowly coming along as I've said every other week! But progress is progress and I get excited to go and see each week more of what they have done. I know God's will is in this project and he has great plans, we just have to wait and be patient. I have to serve him in the time of waiting in whatever way that may be. So, even though this week was hard and I wouldn't want to go through it again, I know God had a purpose for it and I have learned a lot through the experience. I have to trust that God has everything in control!
(our internet at home isn't working and the pictures of the home are on my computer. I will post pictures later of this weeks progression. They have finished the ramp and have started working on the kitchen.)
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